I've developed feelings for a mage parlour lady?

Instead of a mage parlor spend your money on someone trained to help you. If you were sick you would go to the doctor, right? Not the medicine man that lives at the corner of the red light district! lol Really, you know you need help, you need to talk, go to the right person, see a therapist, or a relationship person, just don't blow your life on Joe Schmo. x